So about a week ago, I was offered the chance to pose for nude pictures, covered in body-paint. Now, it sounded delicious, but I had to say no. The thing is, when I called the guy and told him I just couldn't do it, he tried to persuade me by appealing to my vanity. As in, he said "You shouldn't be timid, you have a beautiful body. And you've got a cool fantasy/goth look going on." Now don't get me wrong; I was very flattered, but my body isn't really the problem. I've earned my comfort level in this skin, and I'm relatively content with it. The thing is that being who I am, the offer automatically raised all kinds of ethical issues for me. Would it represent a disrespect for my sexuality? Would I be exploiting myself? Would it say something about the level of respect I have for myself? Am I the kind of person who wants that kind of attention? Is this really an appropriate way for me to self-promote, considering that I've spent years stressing over the fact that people always seem more ready to acknowledge one's physical beauty than they are to revear one's beautiful mind?
These are questions he could not possibly have answered for me over the phone, so I held fast in my declining. Don't get me wrong, I don't have a problem with other people doing it. This just taught me a valuable lesson about my self identity. Turns out I may be more sure of who I am than I thought. What a pleasant surprise!

In other news, I've hit the final straw with my car. Both my front tires are now flat. No idea how it happened. I'm selling the damn thing before I get chained to it forever. GRRRRRRRRRRR.
Also I got my old computer running again. We'll see how long this lasts. *She mutters with cynical disdain for all things mechanical and/or electronic*