I got to talk with my friend in Spain on the weekend. It's been a while. It was good to talk to her. I miss her. She has a knack for keeping me honest. It's weird. It dawned on me that she'll be back soon, by like June. Things have already changed so much since she's been gone. She had so many good stories to tell. I keep getting this weird vision of her coming back and being a totally different person...such is life I suppose. I guess it just worries me that my life will probably sound pretty dull in comparison. She'll have all this great stuff to say and then she'll be like, "so what have you been up to?" and I'll be like, "um, school. That's about it really."
Ah, but you see, it's my inner world that's been changing. The landscape of my mind has transformed considerably over the last few years. Not as glamorous, I guess, but just as valuable. My dreams have gotten very vivid again, like they were in my childhood. My moods swings are begining to even out. I'm gettin all spiritual and philosophical. Well, I suppose that last bit isn't so new. My only complaint is that I've gotten far too sober in the last year, in spirit as well as character. Sometimes I wonder if clarity is such a good thing...that's what got me messed up in the first place!!